September 23, 2009
The Beginning of the race of women..Chapter 56
Mackenzie:
Eyan grew up so fast I could hardly believe it. He already had facial hair!
Mom hardly talked any more ever since Dad left. The only time she came out of her room was to paint.
Irza and I began to get closer, he came over almost all the time. I think I was beginning to like him as more then a friend.
He was such a great guy but he totally blew me away when…
He took my hands and said
“I know how much the thing with your dad effected you. I promise Kenzie I won’t hurt you. I want to have a family with you. Let me prove to you that I’m different baby.” he said with an anxious smile
I reluctantly said “Yes” as I reached in to kiss him he turned me down.
“One way I can prove that to you Mac is, lets go slow.” he said hesitantly.
I put my head down out of embarrassment and anger.
At first I thought maybe he was just playing with my emotions. That is, until a few weeks later he kissed me!
We began to spend a lot of time together and I loved it. It felt nice to have someone to care about me.
One day Grandma pulled me aside.
“Kenzie I’m so proud of you. You made your father leave even though I knew it was hard for you. You found a good man who will be there for you. You are a great heiress sweetheart.” she said kindly
” Yea I guess I’m good but Grandma I wish mom could be happy again.” I said sadly
“I know honey but in all of my years no woman in our family has ever found another boyfriend after being married. Maybe she will eventually forget about love.” said Grandma sadly
For the next few days Grandma tried to spend more time with mom. I hoped that would be enough to make her happy.
As I kissed Izra I thought about how happy he made me.
I pulled away and said ” wait a minute”
“Let’s make this official.”as I reached for the box I had been carrying in my purse for two months, I dropped it! Then I picked it up and asked my boyfriend to marry me.
He screamed “YESSS” and then kissed me.
A few days later we were wed in my back yard.
A few months later I realized I was pregnant!
I was so excited and I felt Izra deserved a daddy make over to suit his new status as a pop.
I spent all my time reading different books on pregnancy. I wanted to make sure I did the right thing as a mother to my baby.
When mom found out about the pregnancy she seemed to have more life. She began going out more and even performing and playing for tips at the park. I noticed that Uncle Harvey was always at every one of her concerts, though mom was to sad to even notice. She just seemed to be in her own little world.
Sometimes Izra would catch me staring at my wedding ring. I couldn’t believe I had gotten married and to such a great guy!
Before I knew it, it was time for my little baby to be born! Boy was it impatient it started kicking with such force it felt like there was more then one kid in there.
Well I was right…there was more than one baby in there. I gave birth to two beautiful baby girls, Genesis which means beginning and Genevieve (John-vee-ev) which means the race of women. I felt the names were appropriate since our whole legacy was just a race of women and I felt these little girls were only the beginning.
As I held my child in my arms I just kept hoping and thinking please let me be a good mother, please!
